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Why You Don’t Desire God More Than Everything

Why You Don’t Desire God More Than Everything

As I was washing my face and doing my little nightly beauty routine, I felt that same weird twinge I had felt earlier in the evening while I was scrolling through my social media pages during my supposed “quiet time”, turn sharply in my chest again and this time I decided to pay attention to it and asked the Holy Spirit, “okay what is it?” He said to me very simply, “you don’t desire me more than everything else”. And though in that moment I wanted to think of all the reasons why that couldn’t possibly be true, I knew overwhelmingly overall, it was true. I don’t desire God more than everything. You see if i were to be painfully, brutally honest with myself, I would see that i desire to scroll through all the intriguing, beautiful and interesting pictures, stories and accolades of all those i follow on Instagram more than I desire to scroll through scripture. I would rather live life vicariously through those i admire on social media and covet their accomplishments and even get a little envious of what God is doing in their lives…ok maybe a lot envious {repentance needed!}…but the point is that instead of using available time to spend with God, i have many times chosen to do otherwise. My heart has so many other things that it desires and chases after more than it does God. So as i finished washing my face, the Holy Spirit told me to go and read about the the Tower of Babel. I wondered what this story would have to do with me not desiring Him, so I quickly put on my night creams, hopped on my bed and opened my bible to Genesis 11:1-9.

As I read the verses, it hit me over the head like nobody’s business! “As they said, Come, let us build us a city and a tower whose top reaches into the sky, and let us make a name for ourselves, lest we be scattered over the whole earth.” (11:4)

The Holy Spirit began to unpack this for me and expose my heart’s real desires right before my eyes. I desire the things of the world so much more than i desire Him because I desire to “build a name for myself”. And if many of God’s people were to be seriously honest with themselves, this too is true for them.  I know it sounds crazy to word it as such… “to build a name for myself”… but the bible is very clear in what their heart’s motivation was in those building the tower; ultimately, their goal in building a city and tower was for their own security, not security and trust in God, but in themselves and what they were able to build and accomplish in their own strength and abilities and what would gain the respect of others. They wanted to be known.

Many of us also want to be known; I can even go as far to say we may want to be known by the world more than we desire to be known by God. So instead of spending time in His presence seeking His desires for our lives, we go off pursuing things like accomplishments, success, praise, good living & lifestyle, security, independence, significance, opportunities, recognition, acceptance, popularity, entertainment, and even beauty, all with the underlying goal of building a name and security for ourselves. We all want to be praised by man in some way, we all would like to be noticed, acknowledged, recognized for our talents and giftings…so we go seeking after these things in all kinds of ways and they end up taking precedence over seeking God first. In verse 11:1 it says that the people were all of “one language and one accent and mode of expression”, so they all had like perspectives, goals, and pursuits, which is why they came together with their similar mindset of building a tower and making a name for themselves. In the same way the world and our culture as we know it has a similar game plan and ambition, which frankly is to build up “self”. We don’t really want to have to trust in God, and instead seek security in the things of this earth.

You don’t desire God more than everything because you’re too busy pursuing and thirsting for the things of this earthly life. You’d rather seek out ways to make more money or start this business or that ministry or getting into that prestigious position, or figuring out ways to catch the attention of that guy or girl or wanting so badly to find a husband or a wife, or watching and listening to crazy entertainment shows…SO MANY things in this life has our heart’s attention more than God does. There’s nothing wrong with most of these things in and of themselves, however, there’s everything wrong with putting them before God. So many things keep us distracted from pursuing and desiring the presence of God in our lives. Our focus is off.  See the things of this life are all temporal and will one day burn up. But if we  focus on sowing into the things of heaven and pursuing God and diligently seeking Him and His passions and purposes, we are storing for ourselves treasures in heaven that will not rust, corrode or burn up. And in that we build a name for Christ and the Kingdom of Heaven – not for ourselves – bringing Him great honor.

“Do not gather and heap up and store for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust and worm consume and destroy, and where thieves break through and steal. But gather and heap up and store for yourselves treasures in heaven where neither moth nor rust nor worm consume and destroy, and where thieves do not break through and steal; For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. Matthew 6: 19-21  

For the heathen wish for and crave and diligently seek all these things, and your heavenly Father knows well that you need them all. But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will given to you.” Matthew 6:32-33

Instead of submitting to every pull and desire of our flesh let’s learn to instead submit to the Spirit and be led by Spirit. The Holy Spirit guides us and teaches us all things and leads us with conviction. Repent and pray to God as I have to as well, for trusting in your own self and for desiring the things of this world more than Him. I praise Him for His mercy and compassion and that He totally draws near to those who draw near to Him.

“Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.” James 4:8

My heart is for you!

May Dobbins

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